Feeling Natalie's kicks brings such a calm and peaceful feeling over me (even though her kicks are getting stronger and wakes me up in the middle of the night and in the wee hours of the morning haha) and I'm constantly reminded of this little miracle inside of me and how amazing the human body is to be able to create another life. I'm telling you now, women are amazing!! I've honestly never in my life been so happy, content, and grateful -- I absolutely LOVE being pregnant and I love the feeling of being one with Natalie. In a way I'm a bit sad that this journey is coming to an end soon (Natalie weighs 2606g at 37 weeks and has been packing on 200g every week for the past 3 weeks; I'm already 1cm dilated apparently) and that Natalie and I will be two separate individuals when she's born.. Don't know if everyone feels this way when they're about to have their first baby and it might sound strange and even a bit selfish, but if I could I want her inside a bit longer!! I'm not ready for her to come out yet even though I can't wait to meet her and actually be able to hold her in my arms. It's a strange feeling and I get a bit emotional when I think about it.. All I know is that I'll probably cry just like her when she's born lol. It's a whole new kind of love that only a mother can have for their child and it's so fulfilling it's incredible. It fills me up completely :) And one more thing that would make all of this even more perfect is if Oli was here so he could be with me when I go into labor and meet Natalie at the same time, but alas that's not going to happen..sadness... We'll just have to make do with photos and skype for now!
Oh, and I've fiinnaaalllyy packed my hospital bag! Cutting it a bit close but I can now say I'm fully prepared to go to the hospital
I started knitting a baby blanket for her recently. It took me more than a week to decide on colour, thickness of yarn, design, and size and drove my mum crazy by asking her her opinion on all of the above. I just want it to be perfect even though I'm a beginner knitter and a self-taught one at that. I must admit it's not too shabby and I'm excited for the finished product. The yarn itself is 100% organic wool and it's so incredibly soft. I didn't want the yarn too thick because it doesn't get very hot in Australia but am planning to make it a bit big so I can wrap her around a few times in case it does get chilly in the winter months. I'm so into knitting now and considering a lot of my friends are pregnant or already have little babies, might start knitting some for presents :) Also want to try knitting beanies and clothes if I have the time to teach myself after Natalie's born hehe!!